and ....I believe in you

sorry for being away....its called im a server and it was 4th of July= record breaking numbers at my restaurant :)

I got to talk to one of my favorite peeps today, which is a rarity you see
We are both super busy and his business is waaayy more important than my business
Soo this post is about him , I suppose


I have known him since High school...I can actually remember the first time we met...it was in this weird pseudo English class freshman year and all the girls liked him....as I recall HAHA
Well turned out he sorta didn't like the other girls...he kinda liked me
Thus began our cute dating history for the next oh little while of high school
Well we broke up somewhere along Junior year and didn't talk again for oh about 4 + years....
Then thru the amazingness of FB we ran across each other....about a year and a half ago and have not stopped talking since....
He's the friend where you haven't spoken in that long and then you do, and its right back to normal..ya know talk about anything and everything.....and he is comfortable ...like a chair hahaha
No more like FAMILY kind of comfortable

Soo after that lovely conversation....I watched a little movie that I picked up at your local Redbox and it was Open Road

yall this was the best movie

I have seen in a long

long

long

looooooooooooonnnnngggggg

TIME

Guess you could say I have a soft spot for someone trying to find their way , a slight romance and someone they have lost along the way finding their way back....

 

Soo WATCH IT !!!!!!!

 

And I had to include a lil quote from my convo...cuz this my girls is what ya need to hear from ppl in your life : "Wow. Ok you caught me off guard on that one." "You are beautiful in everyway..."

Don't let these kinds of friends go ...girlfriends...theres a reason hes lasted this long ...off and on that is :)

A little more about me...I kiinda left out some stuff

So first off I am in my early 20's going to be mid twenties in a few short years but hey not there yet soo still rocking it :)
I taught ....and elementary grade...and decided that was NOT for me

...acted for 10 years...professionally
...went to college in a very small town
....lived on an island...lived in a big city
...had a crazy roommate, moved out from same abode of crazy roommate
...won a Tony...yes for realz

...lived on  the Rez
...am trying to be healthy...which means lots of eating healthy and lots of working out
....am considering a move...I just want to throw a pin at a map and go where it lands...im to that point

....am passionate
...funny
...kind.
...love Food
...love being creative
...love my JOB
...easily amused
...love simple things
...am a Latter Day Saint

 

Hmmm im sure I left out some things but for now theres a lil more about me

 

Here is my fav. Pinterest find for you to mull over for the day after the 4th ...

 

July 4th...Americas Birthday and a lil more about mwaahh

Happy Birthday America!!!!

On a day like today , cookouts are customary. However when one has to work on the 4th and has for the past few years....its best to indulge in what you can  :)
That means I chowed down on some awesome RIBS mmmmmmmmm and potato salad and a snow cone....yes you read right....a good ol fashioned, drippy, snow cone

and yes im sure I turned into this little white cat while eating it....lol wana compare tongues ?????

Soo on this day I cant help but think how lucky I am to be here celebrating this holiday, even if it is by working....soo coffee table gossip today

Im stuck.....on a guy that I have been in and out of love for the past 7ish years
am notorious for meeting people like crazy and talking to them...an actor boy that's new and sounds intriguing or a pilot ....but our schedules cannot match up.....hmmmm we will have to see which one unfolds .....til later...best wishes and best dishes and loveliness from my life to yours. (yes that was Paula Deen inspired)

Blah Blah...a case of the Mondays..a day late

So today has just been ...BLAH.....ya know this kind of blah....

 

It should probably be stated that I love Lucy...so yes shes going to be in bits and pieces of things.

 

Soo heres my randoms from today...

 

Why does religion living a belief system have to be soo hard.

I know all good things come through trials and take effort....ok gotcha. I have this idea of the person that I want to be or at least this ideal...will I ever get there ...probably not entirely but at least a semblance of what I want...I sure hope so.

 

This always gives me hope that I can do what I know to be right and that I want to live up to something bigger.

However the daily grind of that gets my off course sometimes....for me I have realized that I have given up too many times. God is always with me and He never gives up on me. But me, now that's a whole other story. I have to stop going when the running gets tough.

 

James 1:12 "Blessed is the man who that endureth temptation; for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to them that love him."

 

Here is my other super random thought...Ive been on this amazing workout kick for the past month thanks to a friend who motivated me by doing an Iron Man ...google that please...its intense!!

Crazzy awesome workouts!!!!!   This is what I do...do I do all the rounds...not most of the time...do I do that many reps....nope   but I do what I can , when im not so BLAH and it rocks !!

Love...heres some coffee table gossip for sure

One of my favorite things to read on a persons blog is their love story. I guess you could say I am a lil romantic in my thinking. Soo I wanted to share a lil of my story with you or at least the beginning and perhaps there will be a follow up later with all the other happenings..soo here it is  :)

    Imagine back to summers long ago when your world is carefree and your doing something that you love to do...for me that was acting and it was a summer on a beach before my senior year of high school. All it took for me was a handshake and things changed after that moment. We would walk into a room and our eyes would search each other out and lock from across the room. I'll never forget walking into the theatre and his eyes finding mine, the smile that radiated from that one look was enough to say it all....we were head over heels, in over our heads, in love. Now this wouldn't be much of a love story if I didn't mention that he was def. a tad bit older, but that's how the best of them start I suppose. We had the trysts and the secret rendezvous before the show....we reveled in things like only a summer romance can.
    This sort of thing continued on for the rest of the summer and neither one of us had thought about how the should would eventually come to a close or that the days would get shorter and nights cooler. As the show came to a closer our love was still unspoken....moments were getting deeper, feelings more buried and we were spending all of our free time together. There was a glorious week where we spent it at this little cottage nestled right on the waterfront. It was our time to say goodbye.

 
    School started back up for me and the time came for him to leave the island and head home. That was one of the hardest goodbyes I have ever had to say. We had left so many feelings unspoken, so many things undone and more importantly our hearts were on our sleeves. It felt as if someone was taking a part of me with them... As he left I just cried, it was more because I was afraid of losing all that we had together, which was really quite more than we both understood at the time.
   Ill leave it on a happy note....a few weeks later I was at my cousins house and like friends like to do, she grabbed my phone and texted him that " I love you." My heart was pounding out of my chest, I just knew that if someone could have a heart attack at the age of 17, it would surely be me. My hands were even sweating, and I remember it felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest...all I could do was wait for his reply...and it came..."I love you too!." Those were some of the best words...my heart attack symptoms quickly turned into a feeling of floating and there was no getting me down for the next 3 and half years.
  




One last thing... Id wana know what he looked like ...that would complete the pieces for me in this lovely blog land....so I cannot post his real image but I will give you an idea... a few of these guys were some friends....